Lately I've been very fortunate to be part of The Abundant Mama Project with my friend Shawn over at Awesomely Awake - I truly believe in the power of the universe to provide just what you need at the time you are most craving it, and this little project came to me a couple of weeks ago when I was feeling particularly low and particularly alone. The aim of the project is to focus on gratitude, to recognize beauty and joy, to notice and give thanks for all the wonderful things in your life. It's kind of special, I tell you friends, you can sign up for the next round here.
This week in the project we are focussing on people we love. Not things or places or situations, but those special people around you. I have set myself a challenge to write about one person each day, and to keep going and going, even when the obvious immediate friends and family have been covered. Today, I wanted to share a few notes I wrote this morning for my first day...
Vinnie. You knew I would say that right? The easiest one. The first one and the only one. In a life of always putting myself first, he became the number one and at that moment his life was the beginning of mine. I am grateful every day that he chose me to be his mama, that I was blessed enough to be that person to him. I am grateful for every change and challenge and lesson I undertake each day, as a result of him being in my life - patience, kindness, strength, trust, joy, faith, hope, power. I am grateful for every way I get to prove myself to him each day, I am grateful that I get to teach him joy and warmth and all those lessons little boys need to learn. I am grateful that while my life was turned on it's head this year, his face and his heart were the things that kept me going and I am grateful for the strength I find to keep going for him.
Mostly, I am grateful for every moment we've had together and for every moment we will have together - sleepless nights, unending worry, giggling tickle fights, high fives, building lego towers, hours of cajoling to get him to eat anything other than crackers and dry cereal, teaching him about the world, wet kisses, splashing in the bath, walking hand in hand, seeing magical things reflected in his eyes - I feel gratitude for all these moments, every one of them.